Showing posts with label MS low fat. Show all posts
Showing posts with label MS low fat. Show all posts

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Day 151 - Super quick

Just letting everyone know I am here today. Did my upper body muscle rounds in the AM, went for a 30 min walk with my dog late morning, and had Jujitsu tonight. I think I fulfilled my workout quotient today! Legs sore from yesterday so that's good. I was also researching Precision Nutrition today after reading about it in Lilla's post. Will keep looking over the info, it seems like a good way to transition into a permanent lifestyle change after this round of MS. Plus, my husband has not been losing weight on the current plan I made for him from BFFM so I want to look into something else and see if that will make a difference. All we can do is switch it up and see what happens, right? What have we got to lose? So I'll be around tomorrow. See ya!
PS Put chia seeds in my apple oatmeal protein pancakes this morning. yum yum.

Day 150 - 5 months!

Here's yesterday's post, a little late:
So it's been that long (and that short!) of a time since I started this blog. What a ride it's been so far...there's so much I have learned from this experience, but here's a few things that stand out to me:
1) Strangers can unite over common life struggles, work toward goals together, and become much closer to each other in the process than you thought you could be to people you've never met.
2) Putting on your bikini every day and posting a picture of you in it on the internet is a great motivator.
3) Having a strong community and accountability structure is ESSENTIAL to long term weight loss success.
4) There IS such a thing as too much fruit.
5) You don't have to be perfect, you just have to show up and keep working, and the results will follow.

There are many more, and maybe I'll start a long list somewhere, but that's all I'm going to get philosophical about for now. Today's workout was lower body muscle rounds and that's always a killer for me but it was great. Upped my weight in squats and calf raises but couldn't yet in deadlifts. My back was already tired from the squats so I had to kind of short the hamstrings today. No biggie - they will get more work next time. Nutrition was low fat today - I haven't been calorie counting so I know that's not good but I have been keeping to the fat numbers so it can't be too bad. Still, I need to make sure I do not go over 1600 cals for this stage.
I also finally got my vitamins today, I have been waiting for them for over a week. So I had my first dose of glutamine yesterday, we'll see if that makes any difference, and I also did end up getting chia seeds so I'll be having fun with those over the next few days. I put them in some crystal light lemonade and it made it very filling. I was expecting them to dissolve more and they didn't, so though you could not taste them, you could see little black seeds floating in the cup. Kind of weird but whatever, I'll try almost anything once. So more on that later, for now gotta get going. ECSS is so close!!!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Day 149 - On the bandwagon

Today was not too exciting...first day on low fat so I got to eat regular carbs again (yay!) and lots 'o protein since I was deficient from yesterday. All day I was hungry but I ate the right foods so I was still on plan all day. I did not, however, get in my weight training. I had Jujitsu tonight so that was a workout but still need to catch up with my regular workout tomorrow. The only other piece of news is that I am jumping on the Mike and Michael bandwagon and deciding to not post any pics until ECSS. I am already behind on posting them anyway, so what's a few more days? So no more for two more weeks. I will continue to take them so I have them for my transformation video and other documentation, but no one will be seeing them. I would rather do that than do pics with regular clothes on, since I still want the others for my records. So no pics today, hope I have something exciting to reveal in 13 more days!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Day 137 - Wrap up

So I decided to just skip yesterday's workout rather than try to make it up and take my scheduled rest day today, with the exception of Jujitsu. I did not have my reward meal, that will be tomorrow. I am finishing this round today as my last low fat day and tomorrow starts low carb again. I think that as long as my results go back to where they were by next week I'll be okay but if they do not I think I may extend the low carb cycle and shorten the low fat cycle because I always lose on low carbs and as long as I give myself some rest from it, I do not get tired of it or have too little energy. So that's the plan so far. Tomorrow I will have a regular muscle rounds workout and we are doing a Jujitsu demonstration in the evening for this community party at the church so that should be fun. And of course lunch with Jeff will be fun as well and will be my reward meal, just staying low carb the rest of the day. Hopefully the rest of everything will work itself out. That's all for now, gotta get some rest, thanks for all the comments and help fellow shredders!
Here are today's pics:


Day 136/137 - Behind!

So I am a day behind on posting this, but here it is anyway...
Yesterday was not good. It seemed like everything I did took longer than I thought it would and I had no time for the things I needed to get done! Nutrition was good, but I postponed my workout until the evening after I had skip it to get to work on time, then after running around all day I just didn't have the energy to do it after dinner. Actually, I am kind relieved, though, after I read Michael's comment about overtraining, because maybe I did need an extra rest day since I fit all of those criteria he gave me. As I told him, I have been doing upper body 2x a week with pushups 3x a week, and Jujitsu 2x a week, which has more pushups, so there is definitely a good chance that my upper body is getting into the overtraining mode. I have never had this before so it didn't even occur to me, and my lower body is fine, so I think I will do the lower body portion of yesterday's workout today, even though today is supposed to be a full rest day, and then continue my program from there. I have a couple of decisions to make about the next few days, so I'll have to work it out.
On another bad note, I am gaining weight!! I know that weighing every day is considered bad, but honestly it is usually motivating for me. A small fluctuation I don't worry about, but I have gained back all the weight I lost last week and it is really upsetting me because I have been on track with the low fat plan of MS and even under 1800 cal per day which is supposed to be my calorie deficit number. I am hoping it is related to my monthly cycle because if not I will be really devastated. I guess we'll see next week. If not, I may have to switch to a longer cycle of low carb and a shorter cycle of low fat because I definitely lose on low carb and I have pretty good energy with it so I don't know. One of the things I need to think about.
Also, today is supposed to be my reward meal, but 1) I don't feel like I deserve it because I am gaining weight and 2) I am supposed to go out to lunch with Jeff tomorrow, so I think I am going to skip it today and do it tomorrow. I don't know how that fits in with the rest of the MS plan, though, because tomorrow should be the start of the next low carb cycle. Should I just do low carb the rest of the day and allow the reward meal for lunch, not counting it? I think that kind of negates the whole day as far as low carb goes, since the day will be over. I have a hard time with that for every reward meal. I just can't wrap my head around how you can just not count a meal when you are going for particular numbers all day long. I mean, the reward meal is going to mess them up, so I guess keeping to them all day just lessens the impact? For carbs, it's like, no matter if I have 30 carbs all day or 30 carbs at one meal, it's still 30 for the day, so if I'm only supposed to have 30 all day and I have 60 or more because of my reward meal, then the day is shot, right? You certainly can't call that an on-plan day. I guess that's the point, to give your body a break, but since I am changing the day, should the rest of that day be a low calorie day or a low carb day? I guess I'll figure it out. These are all things I need to work on. Anyway, I am finally going to edit and post all my pics now so I'll be back later today to post more about all of these rambling ideas. See you then.


Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Day 135 - Recap

The update from yesterday isn't much - I had a horrible workout and don't know what was wrong with me. I tanked on my pushups, I had to drop weight on all the upper body exercises, and I was just totally weak. I have no idea. It wasn't a food thing, that was for sure, I just had no strength. Very disappointing - hopefully Wednesday's weight training will be better because if not I am going to be really worried. Only thing I can think of is that I worked out so hard on Monday, although it was lower body, I just didn't have enough left for the upper?? Lame reason, I just have never had that happen like that. Hope it isn't a trend.
For today, though, I did my cardio workout as planned and so was glad that I finally got it in like I was supposed to. Nutrition was also good - made some great chicken chili for lunch and low fat lasagna for dinner and was under calories for the day and feeling good. Rest of the day was busy so I still didn't get to posting the pics - working on that tomorrow since I don't have anything planned so far. Stay tuned...


Monday, February 25, 2008

Day 134 - Stupid measurements

Weight: 150 lbs (loss of 2# this week, loss of 2# in M3, 16# overall)
Omron bf: ?% (I forgot to check this before I had my breakfast so I'll do the reading tomorrow morning)
MS bf: 18.8% (GAIN of .4% in M3, LOSS of 4.3% overall)

Bicep: 11.5" (loss of 0" this week, GAIN of .5" in M3, LOSS of 1" overall)
Chest: 35" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 1.5" overall)
Waist: 28.25" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 2.75" overall)
Stomach: 31.5" (GAIN of .5" this week, GAIN of .5" in M3, loss of 3" overall)
Hips: 37.5" (loss of 0" this week, .25" in M3, 3.5" overall)
Butt: 40.5" (loss of .5" this week, .5" in M3, 3" overall)
Thigh: 25" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M2, 3" overall)
Total inches: loss of 0" this week, GAIN of .25" in M3, LOSS of 17.75" overall

Well I'm officially stumped...I lost 2 lbs this week so I thought I was doing really well until it came to my measurements. I didn't lose anywhere except in my butt (which I am glad for) but I gained in my stomach! What is going on? Hopefully I'm just retaining water or something and next week it will be ironed out. Because I really worked hard this week and that's pretty disappointing to not have the results I was expecting. The only thing I know I did not follow was all the cardio - I did some of it but not all so that could be part of that. I have to be more disciplined about that and probably add some SS in this week since I should have more energy than last week. That's about all I have to report this morning, I'll be back with more later on after my workout.


Sunday, February 24, 2008

Day 133 - Killer leg day

Well today things went well. It was the start of the low fat phase of MS and I did well with that even with going out to lunch this afternoon with my sister. I made sure I got in enough protein today as well, I was supposed to have at least 150g and I got more than that, so I am very happy with that, as well as the fact that I stayed under 1800 cal. Yay me. Then the workout today was muscle rounds for lower body and it was really killer but great. I think it might have been the most intense leg workout I have done since I started back in October. I only had to do 3 body parts so I could really concentrate on them, and with what I learned last week about the amount of weight I could handle, I upped the amounts I used for these exercises and it was great. I think I got the weights to almost exactly the right numbers because I was definitely DONE when it was over. I'm sure I'll be complaining about this tomorrow and Tuesday but for now I am happy to have given it my all and hopefully be making progress on my lagging lower body transformation. I also did a little abs and I always like that - I'll be SO excited when I can see my abs because I know they are in good shape, just hidden under some fat still. So tomorrow I do upper body and the pushup challenge so I'm looking forward to having some good numbers to give you for that. I know I am lagging behind in my picture posting but rest assured I am taking them, I just have to do the editing and posting still. Tomorrow should be the day for that. I will be in Virginia tomorrow evening for a Mary Kay event (close to DC) so I have to do my entry early in the day and I'll be home late so my schedule might be strange on Tuesday but it's all good I'll work it out. That's the update from Shred Central, or at least one of the Shred Centrals....Adam should have more about ECSS on his blog today but I don't see it yet - I'm sure he's really busy but keep checking it out to see because it will be cool I'm sure...See you soon!
PS Seems some girl named Lilla has challenged the rest of the NY4 to a little competition. Well, as you all might have guessed, I am not the competitive type so I don't think I can respond to that...NOT...okay I'm extremely competitive so I'm going to have to now totally kick some booty. Not that I didn't have enough motivation already but now it's also for glory. BRING IT ON!!!


Saturday, December 22, 2007

Day 68 - Work Party!

Still having trouble getting the daily blogging going but wanted to make sure I didn't get caught not putting anything up since it was a beast to do all at once last time. So I'm just going to do my post for Friday:
Anyway, I just finished up Round 1 of MS today and I wasn't really too good about food for the last two days but not overly crazy and today was supposed to be a reward meal anyway. It was more like a reward DAY but I've learned that I can get by with that as long as I don't mind slower results. And for right now, that has to be the compromise because it is just too tough during the holidays to give up everything at all of the parties and such. I made a conscious decision not to beat myself up about it and get things back together afterwards so I am fine. It's only a few days and I can easily recover from that.
My workout was strange today, though, I was doing fine and then got really tired about halfway through, so I stopped. It was actually my workout from the day before because I've been a day behind for about 4 days now since I took an extra rest day last week. So I just gave up my rest day today and tried to do the workout but it was not good. Still haven't figured out why, unless it's that I'm not getting enough protein, which is possible because I haven't been having my shakes most days. So I had one, felt better, and moved on.
Otherwise, I have been feeling pretty good. A lot of people are sick around me and I haven't gotten anything from them yet (praying that continues...) so that's good news. Everything else from daily life kind of seems like it's on hold with the holidays so I hope things snap back once it's all over. Hope everyone is well, I'll talk to you all soon!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Day 66 - I'm alive!!

Feeling really good today, can you tell?






Okay, before you read on, if you want to catch up on on my progress, go all the way down to day 54 (the end of mission one) to see my final pics, then check each day working up to today (especially day 64 - good results!)...just pics and measurements, but you get the idea...see you in a few minutes...

So, here's a video just to get things started back on track...


That's all for now, it took forever to edit all those pictures and get them situated. Thanks again to everyone who commented during the week to check up on and motivate me. It helped keep me on track since I wasn't able to see everyone else's progress which usually keeps me going! Be back tomorrow with some actual thoughts...and here's today's pics:


Day 65 - 12/18/07

Here's today's pics:


Day 64 - 12/17/07

Weekend was too busy, didn't get a chance to take pics. Here are my updated stats and pics for today, though:

Weight: 154 lbs (loss of 2# this week, 2# in M2, 12# overall)
Bicep: 11.5" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M2, 1" overall)
Chest: 35.5" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M2, 1" overall)
Waist: 28.5" (loss of .5" this week, .5" in M2, 2.5" overall)
Stomach: 31.5" (loss of 1" this week, 1" in M2, 3" overall)
Hips: 38.25" (loss of .75" this week, .75" in M2, 2.75" overall)
Butt: 41.25" (loss of .5" this week, .5" in M2, 2.25" overall)
Thigh: 25" (loss of .5" this week, .5" in M2, 3" overall)
Total inches: loss of 3.25" this week, 3.25" in M2, 15.5" overall

I think it shows a lot of loss in some areas because those were the ones that showed gains last week which was probably just bloat from overkill on the bad food and so quickly lost. If you compare the measurements to the week before, the losses are more consistent so I still think they are accurate. I also reached my Mission 1 goal of 15" lost, just one week late! So I am definitely back on track and happy that way! Here's the pics, what do you think, any change?



Thursday, November 29, 2007

Day 46 - On IR

Wow I can't believe it's been that long since I posted...sorry about that guys, I guess I felt like I didn't have anything to write since I was injured. Usually I'm a "push through the pain" kind of girl, since I have a tendency to hurt myself pretty often, but I this one is not something I can do that with. I haven't worked out all week and it's killing me! I have so much less energy and so much more appetite, it seems like. That sucks. But I have been doing well with eating still - on low fat and today is the last day of round 3 of MS. I am supposed to have a cheat meal today but since I have not been exercising and since the next 10 days are recovery days anyway I'm not going to have it. The problem now is I don't know when I should start exercising again. My neck feels better most of the time, and better every day, but last time as soon as I worked out again I was back to hurting so it's hard to decide. Besides today's, which I am still skipping, the next scheduled workout in MS is on day 39 (my day 49) so I think I will continue to rest for two more days just to make sure and then pick it back up then. There's no cardio scheduled for the next 10 days, though, and I'll have to go back and read through the info to see if I can find out why, because I would like to incorporate some HIIT since I have not done any and I am still 5 lbs off of my goal. I am not going to hit that goal, I know, but I would at least like to lose something more before the end of Mission 1. What's with the body giving out right when I need to push it the most? I guess it's just one of those things.
Anyway, I have been taking pictures but I'll post them later on because I have to get going but I wanted you all to know that I'm still here, trying to do what I can, and thanks for the comments from my last post, I'll reply to them tonight hopefully. Keep working, everybody, and I'll be around to your blogs later on to comment. See ya!


Monday, November 26, 2007

Day 43 - Countdown...

Well I only have 4 days left of MS Level 1 before my recovery period, one week before the halfway point of my mega-mission and only 2 weeks before the end of Mission 1 so I think I need to be really strict in order to make my goals. Here are my stats for today:

Weight: 155 lbs (loss of 2# this week, 11# overall)
Bicep: 11.5" (loss of 0" this week, 1" overall)
Chest: 35" (loss of 0" this week, 1.5" overall)
Waist: 29" (loss of .25" this week, 2" overall)
Stomach: 32.5" (loss of 0" this week, 2" overall)
Hips: 38.75" (loss of .25" this week, 2.25" overall)
Butt: 41.5" (loss of .25" this week, 2" overall)
Thigh: 25.25" (loss of .5" this week, 2.5" overall)
Total inches lost: 1.25" this week, 13.25" overall

I have definitely been losing weight one week and not the next, must just be a side effect of the nutrient cycling, if so I lose more weight on low carb than I do low fat but I wouldn't be able to stick to low carb if it wasn't for the upcoming low fat days so it's like a catch 22. That's okay, I'm losing, that's all that matters, and I probably would have been even less had I not done dessert three times last week but hey, it's the holidays! Not that I am unhappy with the results, but my goal is to be 150# by the end of Mission 1 so I still have 5 more lbs to go. At the rate I have been going, that doesn't seem likely, but actually I guess I won't be that upset about it, as I said in another post, because I can see the results in my pictures, I feel better, and this is a lifetime journey. As long as I'm making progress there's no reason to get upset about reaching or not reaching a certain number. I did think that those goals were attainable, though, but I have all of Mission 2 to make up the difference because those goals are a little less aggressive. And the other little monkey wrench in my plans is that I have been battling a neck injury and it is pretty bad today. I think that I did it from having the olympic bar on the back of my neck for squats with no cushion. My own dumb fault, I know, but it's not like I squat that much weight. It's only on one side, so I think I must have slightly pinched a nerve or something because the pain goes from the back of my head, into my shoulder, and down my trapezius at times. Sometimes it's fine and other times it flares up, depending on how much exercise I do. I thought after my two rest days from weights it was fine but I must have done something because I can hardly move my head this morning. And I did lunge squats yesterday but I guess maybe just holding the weight pulled it again or something. I don't know but I had to have Motrin before I could even get out of bed. So I think I am going to take it easy today and maybe by this afternoon it will have subsided enough to get in my workout but I don't want to push it. So that will put a damper on my progress, but I will overcome that by eating as clean as possible. Monkey wrench #2 is that on Dec. 6 I am going to NYC for my birthday with my mom, sister, and best friend, and I was going to indulge some at lunch that day, but you know, thinking about it, I don't really feel the need to. I guess I'll see when I get there, but I would rather save it for my real birthday when I go out to dinner with my husband. At any rate, all of those days fall within the recovery period which is supposed to be normal eating so I think what I feel like is indulgence will probably still be at least maintenance calories, if not lower, because my metabolism should be safely raised up by then. You know what, I'll cross those bridges when I come to them, I want to plan ahead but for now I will just take it one day at a time and just keep it in the back of my mind that they are coming up.
Anyway, that's what's going on with me today. I'm off to put a heating pad on my neck for a while and have some hot tea and see how that goes. I do have to get some work done today but it's still early here so hopefully I can start to feel better quickly and get going.
Here are my comparison pics - I would have never realized how far I've come had I not taken pictures. I would even have been able to rationalize the inches lost, but the photos just don't lie. So so so so so glad I took them even though the day ones were painful...just makes today's even sweeter!


Sunday, November 25, 2007

Day 42 - Thanksgiving Part 2

Well obviously I didn't post yesterday night but things have been going well. I did as planned - fruit all day and then low fat dinner. Well, mostly low fat because I did have a piece of cake for dessert but I made the cake with applesauce instead of oil so it was low fat, the only part that wasn't was the icing. Anyway, I think it was still good, especially since it was all the fat I had all day. Jeff liked the food so much he wanted to have it again tonight so I made another turkey breast and we had the leftovers of everything else. Actually I had a piece of wheat bread with some turkey and gravy with a side of green beans so I had even less than yesterday. I did have a small piece of cake again though. This is why I don't make things like that often. I eat them. But again, I think I was fine because I had high-protein cereal for breakfast, turkey and cranberry sauce for lunch, and pineapple for a snack earlier today. Like I said before, I don't technically count everything right now because I still have results and I am going more for lifestyle changes than strict dieting style. I might ramp it up in compliance during Mission 2, depending on where I am results-wise, but I want to be able to not feel too deprived. And I am still eating way better than I would have in the past so I know that I am doing well. Plus I don't want to slow down my metabolism by eating too little, I am sure I have done that in the past as well.
Today's workout was muscle rounds - I did okay but was pretty tired early on. Thankfully it was a short workout today. I didn't have a protein shake before like I usually plan on after the all fruit day since I had a meal last night and I thought that would be enough, but it was barely enough. I was still digging for energy and had a shake as soon as I was finished. Then I felt much better. My quads were still sore from several days ago, which was pretty strange I thought, so I think I may not be getting enough protein for muscle rebuilding. I need to pay more attention to that. Anyone know of another reason that would be happening? Usually the day after a workout I am sore, then more so the next day, then nothing after that. So that was the only thing about the workout. Otherwise, today was very restful again - nice long weekend with my husband so not really looking forward to Monday and getting back to work. But need to get moving anyway, almost the end of the month and that's a big thing for me. Tomorrow is measurement day so we'll see if I came out ahead after this up and down week. Hope all is well with all of you and I'll see you soon!
Here's my pics:


Friday, November 16, 2007

Day 33 - No time

Just wanted to do a quick update because I am getting ready to go to sleep. Today was not where I wanted it to be food-wise but not too far over the edge. Workout was AWESOME and know I'll be feeling it tomorrow. Working most of the day so I won't have time to worry about it, though. Also tomorrow is my rest day + reward meal so I don't have to exercise and don't know what I am going to eat. But it will be interesting. Hope it's a good one....see you all later!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Day 32 - Sore is good

I was sore today but actually I didn't mind because I know it means I am getting stronger. And tonight when I taught Jujitsu, even though my pecs were sore from the chest presses yesterday, I did 55 pushups along with the class. I didn't have to do that many - I can have them do whatever, but I just felt strong and wanted to see if I could do it too. I am proud of myself. I will pay for it tomorrow :)
Anyway, the day was not exciting, busy but didn't get the important things done as is par for the course lately. I'll get to the bottom of it I'm sure.
Tomorrow the workout looks killer but I am looking forward to pushing myself and seeing what I can get done. Only two days until cheat meal although I really don't feel that deprived. Am thinking I will have pizza though. Not sure yet.
Can't believe it's Friday again already. How time does fly. Well, gotta get some sleep and as you can see I am totally random right now so that's not helping anyone. Am hoping to get a video up soon, though, and still need to work on the MS postings...but only after work hours so we'll see how that goes. Until tomorrow...here's today's pics:


Day 31 - More insight requested

Yesterday was a really good day, mainly because I was totally on program all day. Well, actually, I didn't eat breakfast since I got up late, but I did have a protein shake after my workout and then ate an early lunch so timing wise things were still in sync. Anyway, I don't know, it just felt good to be doing what I was supposed to be doing (back to the integrity thing), not that I haven't been for most of these 30 days, just I guess it is getting easier. Feels more like a habit when I am on it, and more foreign to me when I am off. That's so exciting. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit but I guess for me it's more like 30 :) I am sore this morning from the muscle rounds but I got the whole workout in without feeling like passing out (ahh protein) and stayed under my fat gram target for the day, even though my dinner felt like a reward meal. Another advantage to cooking rather than buying - I can sneak in low fat stuff and still make it taste good. We had venison steak with twice baked potato and corn. Alot of carbs, yes, but that is not the goal this week. I made the potato with fat free sour cream, low fat cheese, and low fat bacon. One potato was still probably 10g of fat but I had probably only 10 more the whole day so it was totally worth it :) Also, when you don't have junk all the time, it really makes you appreciate when you have something really good tasting and not bad for you. We get so used to eating for pleasure that nothing is even that good anymore. Does that make sense? It's like a drug addiction - once you are hooked, it's never enough and you never get back that initial high and things start to lose meaning (so I'm told, don't actually know from personal experience). But once you quit, meaning starts to come back and you appreciate little things more. I don't know, but it's kind of like what Christy was saying about peanut butter and such. Once you really take the time to enjoy it and don't just mindlessly eat, food takes on a different meaning and I think everything tastes better.
Okay, so on to why I put the title of this entry as I did...when I started this journey, it was pretty much a snap decision. Of course I had been wanting to do it for a long time, had planned off and on some things to get me back on track, etc, but I didn't really jump into it until I revisited Adam's blog and decided to have daily accountability. And from then on it was something I worked on every day and plan to continue (obviously), and as I said earlier, it seems to be getting easier.
So how do I translate this to other areas of my life?
I have trouble sticking to any plan I make for myself in any other part of my life: financial, career, household...I am a planner, I can really easily break things down and see what needs to be done daily to work toward a goal, and I do it for a week or so, but I am never dedicated enough to see it through to getting the goal achieved. Thus I have a lot of disappointment (in myself) in life. I am big in thinking and small in action. Self-discipline, motivation, I don't know what you call it, I am seriously lacking in it. And it's really becoming an issue. I have so many goals and I am so tired of missing them again and again and again and AGAIN. Let's take the biggest one for an example - to promote myself in my in-home business. It is a sales business and I know exactly how many people I need to meet, calls I need to make, bookings I need to hold, product I need to sell, etc to get to my goals. The numbers are quite clear and well tested in my company. So why don't I do what I say I want to do? Every day I think about it and think about it and do very little. Some days are better than others. But I rarely do all of the things I should do in a given day, and even more rarely do I repeat those actions daily like I know I need to in order to achieve my result. And now with this body transformation mission, I have proven to myself that I am capable of taking daily action and getting results, but it has not traslated to other things as I thought it might have. What am I doing wrong? I thought it was maybe the accountability factor - but I have several people who I talk to daily and weekly who are tracking me and that doesn't seem to help. I just keep letting them (and myself) down over and over. It is beyond frustrating. I have this dream in my heart and my head won't do what I need to achieve it. Why not? Part of it is fear I know. With the weight loss, I really have no fears, nothing to lose (except fat!) and everything to gain. Also, I guess, because I have done it before, I am insulated by the fact that I know that it is achievable personally for me since I have been there. And this goal in my career, I haven't been there, only part way and slid back, and I have stupid irrational fears about a lot of things. I guess the main one is of hearing "no" which is dumb because I have heard it a million times and it really doesn't bother me when I think back, and I really don't care what strangers think of me, so what if they tell me no? But for some reason when I think about making phone calls or going out to meet people, I get really nervous and my mind finds other things to do that take up the time I would use to do that so then I can say "oh, I didn't have time". It makes no sense to me. Why am I self sabotaging so much? What is it about this transformation journey that makes me able to do it that I can use in other areas of my life to achieve other goals? A different kind of accountability? Some other approach I have not thought of? I need to figure out something soon and decide how to apply it everywhere because I am really having a lot of trouble. Pretty much the only things that are going right in my life right now are my marriage and this program. And actually even my marriage is a little strained because of my career and financial issues. So getting to the bottom of this would solve a lot of problems for me. I know this is kind of off topic, but I think these journeys we are on are more about self improvement overall than any one fitness goal. Maybe there are others with similar issues since we all seemed to have similar mindsets before we began this.
Has anyone been able to use what they have learned about the discipline of this program in other aspects of their life?
I welcome any insight you all have, you can comment or email me. I am getting pretty desperate and honestly if something doesn't change by the end of the year, I will have to go back to a full time desk job and that would really kill me. Thanks in advance for any advice you can offer.
P.S. Here's the day 31 pics


Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Day 30!! - Can it be?

I can't believe it's been 30 days since I started this blog. Time flies when you are having fun, as the saying goes. And overall, it really has been fun. I enjoy it much more knowing that others are seeing it as opposed to the first few days when no one was out there and I was talking to myself! So happy one-month anniversary to me!
Today started out...interesting. When I got up I was so focused on getting to my workout (I missed it after all!) I forgot to have my protein shake, which, after the all fruit day, is VERY necessary. I learned this the hard way during my first set of muscle rounds when I tried to do lunges and nearly passed out after the only the first two sets. And I mean the mini-sets, so 8 reps per leg and I was TOAST! Light headed, dizzy, nauseous, weak, all of it. AAAAHHHHH. So I pushed through (with much longer rest times than listed but I just literally couldn't go any quicker) and did half of the workout. I was supposed to do 3 rounds of quads and I did 1-1/2, then I was supposed to do 2 each of hams and calves and I did 1. It was all I could do to just get through that much, but because I had already started my workout, I couldn't go up and eat something and then exercise later because I didn't have the time. And I really wanted to get a good workout in after skipping those other days. So I guess it was probably a combination of not working out for 4 days and what I will now dub "Fruit Day Hangover". It sucked big time. I was really disappointed because the muscles weren't exhausted, it was my whole body, if that makes sense. I know it will to all of you. So Note to Self: Remember the protein first thing!! I'm sure I won't forget again after that experience. But I think I still got a halfway decent workout because now, 16 hrs later, I am feeling a little soreness in the legs so I must have gotten some muscle breakdown. Good deal.
The rest of the day was uneventful, on low fat so I that is always the easiest part of this program for me because I already pretty much do eat low fat as long as I cook for myself and don't eat out all the time. I get myself into trouble when I am lazy. Between that, emotional eating, eating past full, or just plain eating when I am not hungry is what got me to where I was in the first place. Not really the type of food itself, just the quantity and timing. So when I concentrate on it, these days are not that tough at all because I like most healthy food and I do already have whole grains, vegetables, and lean protein on hand.
So that's the story of today. I'll post my pics tomorrow because it is getting late but I do also want to just throw out there that due to popular demand (okay, like 2 people, but still) I am going to be doing a series of posts specifically on MS and my experiences with it as a female. I want to be careful not to tread on Nick's territory as he deserves every dollar he earns on that e-book because it is really a great program, but I think a little more info should be out there specifically regarding the "woman's perspective", without giving too much away. I also do not want to appear in any way as an expert on the subject. Although fitness is a long time interest of mine, this will only be my opinions and should not be substituted for medical or professional advice of any kind, of course. Okay, disclaimer over, I'll talk to you all soon!
Today's pics:


Monday, November 5, 2007

Day 22 - Results show

It's day 12 of MS (end of the first round), 11 of the shred - can't believe the group shred is almost over. I am so excited about the things Adam has in store for us in the future, though, because this experience has really been indescribable and I want others to have the chance to participate in it, as well as to continue in it myself. I still have not gotten around to everyone else's blog since I got back, but I'm sure they all feel the same because we have really gotten a great bond between us in such a short period of time.
So today is the last day of round 1, a rest day, and one where I am allowed a reward meal. I was conflicted about this earlier when I looked at my daily sheet because I still wasn't feeling that great about Saturday's food intake and wondered if I should just count that as my reward meal and skip it today. Then I did my weigh and measure and was even more hesitant to have the reward meal. But then I decided to look up and get an idea just how bad that food I ate that day was, just a ball park, so I know the extent of the damage, and you know what? It really wasn't that bad. Again with the blowing things up in your mind. It kind of goes along with what Sammy and I had talked about a while back when we cheat and then feel like the whole day is blown so we just go buck wild and give up on that day. If we were to stop at that one thing, the day could really be saved. And since I had been good overall, I think that really saved me on Saturday because once I looked up the fat content of the things I was feeling guilty about, the total for the day was still only about 40g of fat and I am supposed to stay under 30 but really how bad is that in the grand scheme of things? Not that bad. So I have let that whole scenario go and I will have my reward meal tonight but I'm not sure what it will be yet. Probably not even something that crazy because I don't have anything I'm really craving and I have not been 100% the rest of the time so I do want to make up for that a little. Plus it's Monday and I have my meeting tonight so it's not like we can go out to dinner or anything. I wish I could save up my reward meal for later but I don't want to mess with the nutrient rotation and the meal is put specifically in this place on this day for a reason.
So anyway, here are the measurements for today. I am disappointed because I did not lose weight (maybe 1/2 a pound) but I think that I lost fat because my measurements are down a little so that is what I am hoping. I have not tested my BF because my meter is extremely inconsistant so I'll just have to hope. Here we go:

Weight: 159 (loss of .5 lbs this week, 7 lbs overall) - this is a maybe, my scale is not digital so I can't be sure but I'm going with it

Bicep: 11.75" (loss of 0" this week, .25" overall) actually I realized today that duh I have two arms so my overall total is .5"
Chest: 35.5" (loss of 0" this week, 1" overall)
Waist: 29.5" (loss of .5" this week, 1.5" overall)
Stomach: 32.75" (loss of .25" this week, 1.75" overall)
Hips: 39.25" (loss of .25" this week, 1.75" overall)
Butt: 42.25" (loss of .25" this week, 1.25" overall)
Thigh: 25.75" (loss of .25" this week, .75" overall) and again I have two legs so overall total is really 1.5"

This brings my overall loss total to 9.25" and 7 lbs.
I was feeling a little disappointed at my stats but looking at them now actually it's not bad, I am pretty hard on myself. I guess the fact that I was down 3 lbs after fruit day and then went back up upset me a little but for heaven's sake I only ate fruit all day of course I'm going drop a lot of weight for that one day. And now when I just did my pics I still feel pretty good abou tmy progress. I need to ease up on myself geez. Anyway, I have got to go but I will be on everyone else's blog later on today to check up. See ya!

Comparison pics for my first three weeks: