Day 117 - The Airplane Principle and E+R=O

Hey sorry I have been kind of scarce lately - things are actually going really well but I have been accomplishing so much that I haven't been on the computer much. Funny how that goes hand in hand :) Anyway, just wanted to do a quick update to say that I am feeling good, getting my cardio in and had Jujitsu twice this week so my workouts have been great, and have been eating well since I am planning more ahead for things. Still working on tweaking all of that so it works just right, but definitely making progress.
I have been in major de-clutter mode lately, and it was funny because Oprah had a thing on yesterday about how the clutter in your house can make you fat and I thought hey, I'm already improving on both those counts. But it was interesting, the point was that there is an underlying reason if you have a really messy house and it transfers to a really messy (i.e. FAT, UNHEALTHY) body because you are not dealing with the core issue and you are not taking care of the things you own or yourself. So I don't really know what the underlying issue is for me, but I am cleaning both up and I am feeling spectacular! :) Having a room in my house clean, neat, and orderly is much like stepping on the scale and having the number be lower. I just get excited and feel so much better about everything. So I don't know if the two are necessarily the reason for each other, but they are definitely related.
Anyway, I am just feeling really TOGETHER for the first time in a while and it is the combination of taking control of my health, my schedule, and my home. I had really just let everything go because for some reason I felt like if one area was messed up, I might as well just let everything else go. Not consciously, of course, but certainly subconsciously. It's like that damn voice in your head that tells you the whole day is blown because you had one wrong food or even one wrong meal, so you might as well just go buck wild and start over the next day. Or next week. Or quit. I still fight that voice some days, especially when I am tired or not feeling well. But it is such a lie. Every minute is a chance to start over again, so when one thing goes to crap, because things will, it is not an excuse to throw your hands up and give up on the whole day, week, plan, whatever. Just stop, forgive yourself for the issue (if it was you that did it in the first place - of course sometimes it is out of your control) and start fresh RIGHT THEN. And I'm talking about mainly the little things - there are major things that can really throw you off track and there's nothing you can do about that, just get back when you can, but I'm talking about the daily life that we let get in the way of our goals and dreams. That kind of stuff will just keep coming up, stealing our destiny, if we let it.
So I guess what I've learned is that small corrections along the way are easier than having to make that big change later on down the road when you wake up and realize you are WAY OFF TRACK. I guess I'm just thankful that I am realizing it in many things, not just in denial like I was before. The weight loss was the first thing, then the house, and next is my business. So I am excited about the future. Because this knowledge of the past mistakes I've made will only help me the next time I find myself facing one of those "give up" moments. Because when you find yourself making changes, any progress you have is better than where you were before.
Once I heard an analogy concerning this about an airplane. You get on a plane with a flight plan for a specific destination, say Las Vegas, and as as soon as you get going, the plane is pointed more toward Denver because things happen to push you off the most direct course to get you there: wind, weather, air traffic restrictions, whatever...you never fly in an exact straight line from point A to point B. So when you get up there and get off course, do the pilots say "well we aren't pointed directly toward Las Vegas, I guess we have to give up on this flight, turn around and go back" or "we better land here in Dallas because everything is against us today to make it there in a direct line, we'll have to wait for a day when the conditions are perfect" or even "we're headed toward someplace else now, so I guess we are going to go to Denver now instead of Las Vegas, even though everyone here wants to go to Las Vegas." No, they don't say any of those things, they make small corrections during the flight to ultimately get the plane to Las Vegas. There may be times when they have to go WAY off course, if there is a severe problem, but eventually they make it to Las Vegas because that's where everyone said they wanted to go. The path they took to get there may have changed, and maybe even the time frame, but the goal never changed, and they kept toward that goal in some way with every move they made.
So when you have your goal and you have your plan, don't be a slave to the plan and lose focus of the ultimate goal. Changing a part of the plan doesn't negate the reasons for making the goal in the first place. You won't be happier going to another or lesser goal if you really wanted to reach that original goal in the first place. Giving up and going back should never be an option. Stopping and waiting for the perfect set of circumstances in order to start again is just an excuse, because perfection will never arrive. You have to make it happen. No matter what you do in the process that's not in the plan, no matter how lost you get on the way, no matter how long it takes you, no matter what anyone else says about your goal, you must be determined to get there NO MATTER WHAT. That must be where that phrase comes from: no matter what...(fill in the blank)...because there will always be something standing between you and your goal. If there wasn't, you would already have achieved it. It might be mental, physical, spiritual, financial, social, personal, any number of things. But if you really want what you have visualized your future to be, if that dream is in your heart, it is there for a reason. We were not meant to dream big dreams and struggle all our lives, never to have reached them. We were given big dreams to fight for our right to have them, celebrate when we get them, and then dream another big dream to go after.
We are the only creatures on earth who have the capacity to set goals for ourselves. Every other living thing acts on stimulus/response and instinct. We alone were made to be more, to rise above instinct and reactions and choose our destiny. There is a formula that Jack Canfield writes about in "The Success Principles" that is simply E+R=O. What that stands for is Event+Response=Outcome. Events happen to us. We do not have control over them. All that we can control is our Response to them. And that is what will determine the Outcome. We alone in this world are able to change our Response to the Events around us and get a different Outcome. If I get sick, I cannot control that, it is and Event. If I CHOOSE to Respond to it by being negative and deciding that I will give up on my weight loss plan because I am unable to exercise for a few days, my Outcome is obvious: failure to reach my goal. True, you can't help how you feel when you are sick, and if you really can't work out then you should not. Notice that I was talking about your attitude regarding that fact that you missed some workouts or didn't eat right. If you can control your Response enough even to know when you are really sick enough to not workout or eat something different versus just giving up because you are not feeling 100%, that's the first type of Response I am talking about. But the second is also important: after that Event has passed, or even during it, what is your attitude? Do you see it as a reason to stop? Or do you determine to pick right back up where you left off and keep a positive attitude the whole way through, much improving your situation? Your Response could be to ride out those days that you are truly sick enough to take a few days off, then get right back at it, and your Outcome will still be the eventual achievement of your goal. The time line may get pushed back a little, but in the grand scheme of things, does anyone really notice that you made your goals a week or month later than you said you would? And for larger goals, even being off by a few years, once you are there, I think the only person who notices you weren't there last year is you. Anyone else who is truly looking out for your best interests doesn't care WHEN you do it, just that you DO IT.
All of this makes me think of Christy, who had a series of bad Events happen to her, but her Response to all of that was very different than most people would have taken. She has chosen to work through all of the excuses she could have, and that most people would really grant her to use, and instead be positive, active, and in control of her Outcome. She is a perfect example of what I am talking about. Has she had setbacks? Of course. But she has not allowed them to interfere with her ultimate goal, and has adjusted as things have come up along the way. That is what makes her so inspiring, and why I think people are usually so in awe of most of those kind of "overcomer" stories they may hear about. Whether it's someone who was told they would never walk again, or die of cancer, or anything, and they beat the odds, it's for sure because they decided that although they cannot control the Event, they were going to control the only thing they could, their Response, and thereby trigger a much better Outcome. Is it always the Outcome we desire? Nope. That's how life is. But often our plans have flaws that we do not see, and the unexpected Outcome is as result of this, but for sure the Outcome we get by having a good Response is better than the Outcome of a bad Response. And the unexpected Outcome we may get can turn out to be even better than we had hoped for, because we cannot even imagine all of the forces that come together to shape our destiny.
What we want in life is out there. For all of us. I don't care what your past has been like or your circumstances are right now, you can change your Response and get a better Outcome. And by doing that over and over with each Event that occurs and each goal we have for our life, we will slowly work our way out of the situations that have a hold of us or the past that haunts us, turn our back on all of that, and face forward to our best days yet. Just hold on, keep pushing, stay positive, and don't ever ever EVER give up.

Day 114 - Wrap up of the day and AL

So I don't know why I am having such trouble keeping up with tracking this, but I'm going to just keep trying until I get it right. Today felt good for exercise but not so much on the accomplishing side of things. I have decided that, in order to get in my SS cardio, I am going to do that for my morning workout and do my weights in the afternoon. I hope that this will work better than trying to do it the other way around because that was just not happening. One of the reasons was because once I am ready for the day, I don't like to get that sweaty again (I know, I'm such a prissy girl...) but if I do the weights later on, it isn't as bad as cardio. Also, I think that sometimes my weight workout suffers because I do it fasted in the morning and I need more protein to be able to lift more so I'm moving to a better spot in the day since fasted cardio is usually good. All things I was reminded of by Adam, so thanks! So I will be doing my weight workouts Monday, Wednesday, and Friday through Sunday and then Jujitsu as my second workout on Tuesday and Thursday. That should get me a lot closer to my goals as well as if I am able to better plan my meals. Those are my two biggest goals right now as far as my mission goes. Anyway, here's what the AL says:
1) Sleep: Target (2) I'm giving myself a target even though I got up at 6:30 because I have been helping Jeff in the mornings anyway and I went to bed last night at 10, so that's still good.
2) AVP: Minimum (1) Still working on getting this in more often - I can definitely tell a difference when I do it more often.
3) Nutrition: Target (2) I had 5 meals and I didn't actually track the calories and ratios but I know that I was not over, however I need to plan ahead more often so I don't run into the problem of not knowing for sure.
4) Workout: Outrageous (3) I finally started SS cardio today!! Yay me!! And I had my first Jujitsu class since the middle of December so that counts as a double workout and even though I didn't do the pushup challenge today I am giving myself a 3 for the day.
5) Prospect: None (0) Getting to this...eventually...I know, I know...
6) IPAs: Target (2) I dropped off one order for $50+ and got another order for $40+ so I'm calling that enough earnings to make my target.
7) Vitamins: Minimum (1) Only vitamins today.
8) Water: None (0) Got in less that 32 oz.
9) Project: Target (2) Mom came again today to help me out and we worked on finishing up the kitchen. Next it's on to my computer room/first office so I am looking forward to getting that done!
10) Accountability: Minimum (1) Only giving myself a 1 for the day because even though I did two postings I didn't get up my pictures and didn't read anyone else's entries.
Total for today = 14
GRAND TOTAL = 36

Tomorrow I have jury duty again so we'll see if the day is productive at all but I'll be checking in hopefully by the afternoon. See ya!

Day 114 - Good news & bad news

Okay, well this is interesting...

Weight: 151 lbs (loss of 0# this week, 1# in M3, 15# overall)
Omron bf: 24.7% (loss of 0% this week, 0.4% in M3)
MS bf: 18.6% (loss of 0.2% in M3, 4.5% overall)

Bicep: 11.5" (GAIN of .5" this week, GAIN of .5" in M3, LOSS of 1" overall)
Chest: 35" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 1.5" overall)
Waist: 28.25" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 2.75" overall)
Stomach: 31" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 3.5" overall)
Hips: 37.5" (loss of 0" this week, .25" in M3, 3.5" overall)
Butt: 41" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M3, 2.5" overall)
Thigh: 25" (loss of 0" this week, 0" in M2, 3" overall)
Total inches: GAIN of .5" this week, GAIN of .25" in M3, LOSS of 17.75" overall

If you'll notice all of my measurements were the same with the exception of my biceps. I guess I am happy with that because I know I really was off plan for about 4 days of the week and still I did not gain so I have to be glad for that. My progress has really ground to a halt, though, so I have to be more disciplined about everything and get that SS cardio in so I will get back on track for ECSS. Then there's the arms, which are not bigger because of fat but because of muscle. I can tell by looking at them. All of those pushups must be helping them or something so yay for that. If you check out my video from yesterday I think you can see what I am talking about. I watched it when I was editing it and I was like HEY are those my arms? :) It's funny how when you are losing weight you don't want to see the measurements go up but in this case I am happy. So that's it for this morning, doing Tae Bo for my SS cardio workout today and see how I do with that. Still need to find my heart monitor but I'll just do it the old fashioned way for today. See ya!

Day 102 - A pint low

So I gave blood this morning after my workout, had to time it right so I wasn't missing any workouts since I can't do strenuous activity for 24 hours. Last time I messed myself all up but it's good now. Tomorrow is HIIT only and reward meal day so it will work out well. As I said in my day 101 post, I have decided that I want to incorporate steady state cardio into my routine to get some better, faster results. After looking at what Tom V has to say about it, I decided that I want to shoot for 30-45 min 5-6 days a week. That might be negotiable depending on time and the way the HIIT workouts are scheduled in MS. As I have said in the past, I am a cardio hater, especially steady state, but I really think it is necessary for me to get as lean as I want to. Also, that is what I was doing when I got down to 17% bf before, so I know that it works for me. But then I had a gym to work out in, and I usually did elliptical, which is pretty much the only machine I can stand and still my feet fall asleep on that one. I don't know what it is but I don't like it. But I don't have an elliptical at home, won't be buying one either, so I am going to have to use my tae-bo DVDs and hope that will be interesting enough to keep me going. I think so. And they are pretty hard so I think that my heart rate will be high enough to qualify. Have to get a new battery for my heart rate monitor, though, because I like using it and then I can be sure that I am in my target zone and not wasting my time. The only thing left to decide is when I am going to fit that in. My weight training usually takes 45-60 min in the morning and that is usually the only time I have to work out. If I try to fit something in later on in the day, it doesn't usually happen. Plus in the evening I usually have something going on away from the house so I don't know what I can do about fitting it in, I just know that I need and want to do it to reach my goals. I'll have to take a look at my schedule and get back to you about the decision on that one. I also lowered my calorie levels because (DUH) I have lost weight and have not recalculated since the beginning so my TDEE was lower. So I have that fixed now. I don't think I was eating too much anyway because honestly I rarely hit my daily intake anyway, I was always under.
Still slowly but surely creeping toward putting my accountability log into action as well, I know it seems crazy that I have it all set up but I just am not in a place to do everything on it just yet. I am getting closer and I will be all-out when I do get it going, so that will be soon. Promise. I know I know, I should just start but I am somewhat of a perfectionist and I hate starting something before it's all set up, that's why I didn't get it going the first time I wrote about it, so I'm just going to allow myself to be that way for this for now and I will get it all going and then work on the perfectionism thing. One at a time :) So I don't think all of this makes much sense, but I am feeling a little fuzzy today anyway so maybe I'll be better tomorrow.
I also wanted to say thank you to all of you who have been commenting on my posts - I have not been too good about commenting back lately but I do appreciate and really look forward to hearing from all of you so THANKS! I'll be better at responding to them individually from now on. I can barely keep up with all of this, I have no idea how Adam does all he does...Anyway, off to check up on everyone now, talk to you soon! Here's my pics: